Am I sick?

I have this habit which worrying about my future, what will happen in the next day, and i really love to imagine things on special event. I have this desperate feeling to show and prove at them that I able to do things better, that I am better than before. I better than her, I better than him. I bet you feel jealous of me bla bla bla

and

Im sick and tired of this cause what I was imagining before have high probability that that imagination would not happen. Sigh. 

I always sit there at the corner , looking at myslef and ask myself what is wrong with me, why I cant be like them. They are so pretty and looked at me, Im a potato in the kitchen, waiting for someone to cut me and cook me and dress me lol

IM SICK AND TIRED OF ALL THIS

I want to be pretty and at least being one of them, but I just cant

All those pretty things need money and I dont have many :(