my inner heart is screaming loudly right now

Yeah

To the things that I want real bad but I can't have it
To the things that I love but it needs sacrifier

I am so mad at myself but do I really have to be mad at myself lol. My inner heart had something to tell everyone but I can't and it makes me sad

So many things happening right now and I dont know if I can get through all this.

3/4 and half

Salam bumi Jeli yang jelita :)

Bersyukur sangat dah sampai third year ni guys. Rasa mcm baru semalam je daftar masuk umk ni. Alhamdulillah dengan keadaan Umk yang sederhana ni, kita still mampu nak study dengan selesa :) #sistabah

3/4 and half? Yes yes yes. Lagi dua semester je kat sini then pergi LI pulak. Haha and HAPPY GRADUATION DAY to all my senior ! You guys are great xoxo from Jeli

Gambaq from fb Ybhg. Prof. Dr. Mohd Hassan bin Mohd Osman. (pilih gamabq ni sbb nampak senior SBT kat dlm gambar ni huhu)

UMK JELI

So this entry saje nak tunjuk gambor umk kat budak baru. Umk Jeli ni baru and fasiliti ada tp limited, but okay lah. Banyak pembangunan tgh buat kat sini. Umk Jeli ni depan MRSM Jeli je and kalau korg gerak jauh sikit akan nampak Politeknik Jeli & Sekolah Menengah Sains Jeli (JESS).

Senang je nak cari UMK jeli ni, cari benda ni ok

Lab dari sudut pandangan fakulti

ni kolam itik. Nampak tak yg macam kilang kat belakang tu? 

Tu lah IBS (kolej budak lelaki, kolej sgt chuolls :p)

kalau zoom kolam itik, nampak itik quack quack

Masjid Dr. Tengku Muhammad Fa-iz Petra

bangunan renek kat kiri tu cafe

ni depan masjid. blh la jogging ngan selfie kat sini lol

Kat kampus ni ada agropark. Kalau ade sesape yg dpt course  

pertenakan ngan pertanian, kat sini lah makmal korang :p 

kalau nak tgk tumbuh tumbuhan kat sebelah kanan

lembu puyuh ikan ada kat belah kiri 

tapi yg kanan dh takdak sebab diorg nk buat bangunan baru. lol

KOLEJ KEDIAMAN

Girls :

Biasanya first year and forth year dapat stay kat blok (which betul betul depan fakulti, mcm dlm minutes dh blh sampai class). Blok ada 2 je, Blok A & Blok B. Untuk second year and third year, klu korg lucky leh la duduk blok huhu. The rest yg tak dpt blok tu boleh duduk pinggiran, basically rumah ok, double storey. Ni HEP akan uruskan, takyah bayar apa apa, dh masuk kt yuran sekali. Pinggiran ni dlm 4-5minutes sampai fakulti ok. Engko boleh jalan kaki, naik bicycle, motor @ kereta.

Untuk girls, cafe korang is cafe yg satu satunye depan masjid tu ye :')

Boys :

Korang duduk kat IBS selamanya :') sorry takde gambo

BLOK :

toilet kat blok. boleh la~

Depan blok. Nampak tak bangunan depan tu, itulah fakulti. Dekat gilos uolls

Belakang blok ada court. Leh la main sini

PINGGIRAN :

rupa dalam bilik. satu rumah ada 4 bilik. 

Satu bilik bawah (4 org)

Satu master bedroom (6 org)

Dua bilik biasa (3 org)

Sila abaikan jiran saya. 

Am I sick?

I have this habit which worrying about my future, what will happen in the next day, and i really love to imagine things on special event. I have this desperate feeling to show and prove at them that I able to do things better, that I am better than before. I better than her, I better than him. I bet you feel jealous of me bla bla bla

and

Im sick and tired of this cause what I was imagining before have high probability that that imagination would not happen. Sigh. 

I always sit there at the corner , looking at myslef and ask myself what is wrong with me, why I cant be like them. They are so pretty and looked at me, Im a potato in the kitchen, waiting for someone to cut me and cook me and dress me lol

IM SICK AND TIRED OF ALL THIS

I want to be pretty and at least being one of them, but I just cant

All those pretty things need money and I dont have many :(

Marhaban ya Ramadhan ! (Day 7)

Selamat datang bulan yang dirahmati Allah, bulan Ramadhan. Alhamdulillah masih berkesemapatan untuk menunaikan puasa tahun ni. Yang sayunya tahun ni sambut half of the month kat Kelantan and only gave like ten days remain in Johor. Its okay. I can do this jyeah !

Talking about Ramadhan, I love this month so much back then but since Im getting older, the spirit had gone little by little. Ni semua syaitonnnirojimmmm punya pasai la tapi untuk tahun ni, I hope I can cherish every moment of Ramadhan. This is the month of blessings. semua pintu syurga sedang dibuka. Ya Allah, masukkan aku dalam golongan yang dapat merasai kemanisan Ramadhan.

Terkesan dengan ceramah ustaz semalam.